She's also determined to keep trying, no matter how many times it takes. I have a lot to learn from her.
Look at how happy she is at the end. But I think she's actually happier about her father's reaction than she is about her success. #daddysgirl
"Remember, loving them is the powerful foundation for influencing those you want to help.... As a companion to that love, trust them. In some cases it may seem difficult to trust, but find some way to trust them. The children of Father in Heaven can do amazing things when they feel trusted."I've always felt like the one thing I do really well is loving others. But trust? Nope. I have major trust issues. It usually takes me a long time to take down enough of my walls to truly trust someone. Even with people I love. That's probably one of the reasons why I'm so stubbornly independent and find it so hard to ask for and receive help from others. It's also probably why I'm so good at helping others with their dating lives but completely rubbish at my own. But that's a dark rabbit hole for another time.
"the soul of Jonathan was knit with the soul of David, and Jonathan loved him as his own soul" -1 Samuel 18:1 (a sentiment which is repeated at least 3 more times in the next couple chapters)Well, I know exactly how Jonathan felt. I, too, have a best friend whom I love as my own soul. Her name is Eryn. And everything I know about myself I owe to her.
|"The Lord be between me and thee, and between my seed and thy seed for ever."|
-1 Samuel 20:42
|Seriously, this looks like it's straight out of my dreams. I just want to jump into it and walk around. And I CAN! #livinthedream|
|I still have flashbacks to the all-nighters I pulled in order to complete this drawing on time. An assignment about lighting and reflection, this is of a glass perfume bottle that was obviously photographed in the vicinity of something with stripes. At least I can now laugh at the amount of tears I shed over this.|
|This still-life was sponsored by both Kenny Chesney and Celine Dion's greatest hits albums. Over and over and over again. Not sure why those particular CDs were so inspiring to me at the time, but anything else I tried seemed to be too distracting. haha|
|I've drawn a lot of still-lives in my time, but this might be my favorite. Perhaps not the best, but one of the more interesting visuals in my opinion. I thought that basket would be the end of me, but I survived.|
|Watercolor paint + dancing in the rain = the way creating art should feel!|
Seriously it's SO FUN! TRY IT!!!
"I'm sad because I wanted my last moments with my [father] to be different last moments than the ones I have. I'm sad because my life is so filled with [his] absence. I'm sad that it is [his] death that defines a large part of me and who I am today. I am sad that, one day, I will have lived more years without my [father] than with [him], and that that number will only get larger while the latter stays the same. I'm sad because I'm starting to not be that sad. That while I do have real moments of deep anguish and grief, where the tears flow so heavily and it feels like I can't breath, they occur less frequently now. I worry that healing means I won't miss [him], or that I'm somehow disrespecting [his] memory, though I'm finally realizing that what it does is just transform the pain from a gaping hole to a tight scar. It's taken me [seven] years to be okay with that, to be okay with letting go of the open wound and letting it close."
|During my dad's fight with his second cancer (in his kidney), he underwent chemotherapy and my mom finally had to shave his head. To show their support, all three of my brothers and most of the other young men in our ward also shaved their heads. It meant a lot to my father, but I think it meant even more to me and my mother.|
|As far as headstones go, I really love what we designed. It's a beautiful mark of the wonderful life my parents shared, not to mention it has a bench! I don't have a picture of it, but on the other side there is a family portrait etched into the stone, as well as our family motto, which to me really is the epitome of my parents' faith:|
"Gird up your loins
Fresh courage take
Our God will never us Forsake"
~'Come, Come Ye Saints'
|We've come a long way in 7 years. I think my family is just as beautiful--and ridiculous--as ever. We've been through a lot together, and no matter what the future holds, we've learned that ours is a family worth fighting for...|
"Why should we think to earn a great reward
If we now shun the fight?"
~'Come, Come Ye Saints'
|In 7 years we've added 3 spouses (Bob, Liz, and Adrienne), 1 grandchild (Lilly), and 2 grandpuppies (Tuffy and Hayden...and yes, I am required to mention them). We've sent out 6 full-time missionaries from our immediate Blackburn clan. We've had 2 high school graduations and 1 college graduation, with 4 more in the works.|
|They look SO YOUNG here! haha|
|Forgive the 'Mexican Creeper' mustache... he'd just been at fish camp for 2 months.|
|Seriously, could he be any cuter?! I don't need to own one, but I REALLY want to hold one someday. I need to figure out how to make that happen.|